results....
no matter how much people try to reassure each other that they'll get good results, i wonder if it really works...because no matter how many people tell me that i'll do fine and that they'll be the ones doing badly i still feel the same way. i still worry about it. i still regret not having worked harder in secondary school. i regret all the times i went home early and ignored my books and went to play. i regret all the times i skipped remedial to go out and have fun. i regret all the times i slept in class and didn't pay attention to the teacher. ( ok this one not really that much). wonder if this is how someone feels on his deathbed. your life flies past you and u look back and think, i should have done this, i should have done that, and u regret not having done everything u wanted to do, not had the fun you wanted to have, not made the friends you wanted to make...people have goals in life. people have aims to fulfill. me. i have nothing. i've made no plans for the future, i've just been a happy-go-lucky guy who takes life day by day and wonder why my life turns out so much more screwed up than those people who planned their life properly. all i want in my life is to be happy. is that so hard to ask. i don't believe there's so little happiness in this world. i look at my sister...see her happy almost all the time even though her exams are so close, and i envy her. to be young, carefree and innocent once more...too bad we never really appreciate our childhood when we're children, and when we're old enough to appreciate it we're no longer children...haiz.